There’s good news and bad news…

Whenever there’s good news, it has to come with bad news. It’s the Ying and Yang of life. One step forward, two steps back. Karma always has a way of showing us what life is all about!

 
So, the good news is my scans were (mostly) clear! Woohoo!! There are 2 questionable in-transits near my primary melanoma, but nothing systemic, so I’ll take it! We are going to watch the 2 spots in the meantime, and if there’s any growth, a biopsy will show us what path to take. But no spread into any organs means I’m still stage IIIC! I’m a happy girl 😄

 
And the bad news. My liver enzymes have skyrocketed with the Sylatron treatment. I’m over 5X the normal range! Yowza! My platelets are down a little, as are my white blood cells, but nothing compared to the changes in my liver. So I have to skip a week to try and bring my enzyme levels down.

Who needs normal liver enzymes?! Seriously...
Who needs normal liver enzymes?! Seriously…

I’m torn as to being glad and upset on skipping a treatment week. I really wanted to push through the tough first two months of the treatment and get the most out of the cancer – killing high dose of immunotherapy. I imagine the Sylatron like a whack-a-mole, killing the cancer cells as they arise. But without the treatment, I imagine the cancer cells popping up with no whacks! There isn’t a mathmatical efficacy calculated for skipping doses, so there’s no telling what skipping a dose means for the cancer returning.

 
Yet, inwardly I’m glad I get a break. I’ve been exausted the past few days and the nausea comes in extreme waves. One second I’m starving, the next I could puke. I have headaches, I cant focus, my teeth hurt, and my jaw gets tired from chewing (I know – weird, right?) My body is tired from its constantly heightened cancer – whacking state. I know I’m stubborn, but I don’t know how much more my body can handle.

 
So I get a break from the immunotherapy for a little while and celebrate my clean scans from the couch with the kitty!

I can only hope to one day strive for this level of contented laziness!
I can only hope to one day strive for this level of contented laziness!

4 thoughts on “There’s good news and bad news…

  • March 10, 2016 at 6:27 am
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    Lauren – this is a mixed blessing 🙁 I hope you find some relief this week and can recharge. Keep fighting – Keep being positive. You are such an inspiration!

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    • March 15, 2016 at 9:07 pm
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      Thanks so much, Renate! Thinking of you!

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  • March 13, 2016 at 11:11 pm
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    Spaz!! You are amazing! I love your positive outlook!!! Baby Sunshine and I are rooting for you! Prayers being sent up! Love you!

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    • March 15, 2016 at 9:11 pm
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      Thanks Spazaroni! Love you, too, and can’t wait to see the little one’s face soon!

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